A few weeks back I wrote about my sweet, baby Murphy. Murphy is my 16 year old beautiful boy that is "Practically Perfect in Everyway". We've been together for 16 years this spring - almost my whole "adult" life.
I have been trying to prepare myself that our time together is drawing to an end. Slowly the last couple months I have noticed a decline in his well-being and behavior. He's gotten really skinny and spends a majority of his time sleeping. He's not interested in playing anymore.
When we were packing away the Christmas decorations this year, I tried to get Murphy to promise me that he'd be around to unpack them next year. (He has his own stocking and ornaments, you know) Sadly, I don't think that will be the case. In fact, today may be our last day together. We have an appointment at the vet today at 2:30pm and I think she will reinforce my suspicion that something is failing - likely his kidneys or his liver. He didn't really want to eat today - and I am talking slivered turkey (yes, in my preparation for the end, he gets whatever he wants) not cat food! So I am trying to ready myself for the message.
How do you say goodbye to your best friend? I don't want him to suffer and need to make that decision for him, but a life without him seems very empty and lonely. I really wanted Little T to meet him, as he has been a big part of my life. It's hard to even type this without crying.
I have shared my house with some wonderful pets - and the last 3 years have been really hard. I lost Gertie in April of 07, Nougat in September of 08 and Murphy potentially soon to follow. When we love our pets, we know that someday we'll have to face these days, but it doesn't make it any easier. Please keep my precious boy in your thoughts.
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