Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Happy Hump Day all. As January is nearing to an end, I don't have much of an update. A form for Little T was (finally!) picked up on Friday from the baby home in Artem and supposedly went to the judge on Monday. I was told that Tuesday they'd go back and I'd be matched with a judge -- but I haven't heard anything more on that (surprise!). I say supposedly - as my sarcasm shows through - because I've been hearing these "going to a judge" promises for a month now.

With SuperBowl upon us, if your team is in the big game, my best hopes for you! What an exciting time. Just a mere 3 years ago, I was in the thick of things here in Detroit as we geared up for the big game. What a week!! And 4 years ago, I was also lucky to attend the big game in Jacksonville. If you ever get the chance -- a SuperBowl is a once in a lifetime experience!!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Mindless Self Indulgance

(Yes, Rhonda, the title is in your honor!!)

Are you bored? Stressed? Need something to do to pass sometime? Are you waiting for a court date (ha!), waiting for a referral, waiting for a trip or need to escape your life for a moment?

Well, then do I have to the game for you. Thanks to my friend Amy (it's actually curses to my friend Amy -- you'll see why after you play!!), I am passing along this latest, mindless game. It's silly and easy and very low tech. But it's REALLY addictive. And it helps me pass the time between 15 minute Fish Wrangling intervals on Facebook -- but that's another story. So here it is... enjoy. And don't thank me! Thank Amy!!

Snake Trouble!

Friday, January 23, 2009

Book Tag

Sarah tagged me in a game to see what everyone is reading. I actually was tagged in this game on Facebook about a month ago, and since I LOVE to read, I'll gladly play along. My book isn't a "beach read" however, as I have been trying to read up on as many attachment tips as possible.

The rules:
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open to page 56.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 2 to 5 sentences, along with these rules.
5. Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual book. Pick the CLOSEST!
6. Tag five (or more) other people to do the same!

Here's my read:
"To encourage the development and expression of his inner life we need to first make him feel safe. If he knows that he will be judged negatively for his intentions, they will remain hidden. To provide the experience of safety, a parent might well consider PLACE. Representing the five parent-attitude qualities of Playfulness, Love, Acceptance, Curiosity, and Empathy."

Now my turn to tag:
1) Tamara
2) Sandy - needs a diversion, like me!
3) Angie (who actually recommended the book I am reading!)
4) Joanne
5) Heather

Read on!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Thank You, Friends

It is not often that I am without words, so I'll simply say thank you. Thank you to everyone who left a note or an email over the weekend of darkness. That's what I am calling it now, as I am trying to put it behind me and move forward. Adding to the madness this weekend, I have been under a full fledged sinus attack. I think it was my karmic-comeuppance for singing the praises too loudly of my flu shot in October. I finally listened to my mother (why I waited, I don't know, they always DO know best!) last night and used the ole boiling pot of water on the stove/towel over your head trick.

Through this I have seen that I have some amazing friends. Some old faces and some I have never met. I am truly touched by every ones kindness - from the Overstreet's including me in their weekly prayer group last night to my long time friend Kim in Columbus, OH who is dealing with her own "wait" as well in many different forms.

Kim sent me a note this weekend that really summed it all up for me. I told her that my first pass at the note had to be tabled due to rapid appearance of tears (maybe it was just the sinuses!), but I printed her note and read it again before bed last night. Kim is one of my oldest friends and by that I don't mean her chronological age! I met Kim on likely the first or second day of 9th grade - in gym class. She and her family had just moved to Mt. Pleasant, MI (my hometown) that year. I was the new kid once, so I always liked to introduce myself to the "new kids". Kim and I instantly hit it off and have been friends ever since. She knows me better than almost anyone! Kim sent a quote from a book she's reading and I wanted to share it:

"Waiting is our destiny as creatures who cannot by themselves bring about what they hope for. We wait in the darkness for a flame we cannot light, We wait in fear for a happy ending we cannot write, We wait for a not yet that feels like a not ever. Waiting is the hardest work of hope." - Lewis Smedes

While writing this post, I got the slightest of updates from my agency. Apparently the form they were promised from Tatiana's baby home was NOT ready for them last week and they are to have it this Wednesday. I am now being told that my papers should go to the judge this Thursday or Friday. Not the update I was hoping for - but at least it's an update.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Slowly Going Crazy...

This is for Ondrea, and all of those who have come before me in the hopes of "keeping it real". You can dismiss my rant, or ignore it, but I have to get it out. Not sure this will help at all, but in an attempt, here goes.

I think this wait is slowly driving me out of my mind. The past few weeks I have been an emotional WRECK. Mind you, I was always one to cry at the commercials of the big brother coming home as a surprise for Christmas etc... but I cried during "The Sound of Music". Since my childhood, this has long been a favorite, I was allowed to stay up for TWO movies every year: Sound of Music and The Wizard of Oz, and I don't think I ever cried, ONCE. This year, bawling.

Today I cried listening to Headline News in my car and NYC Mayor Bloomb*rg talking about giving a key to the city to the Pilot of the plane that went into the Hudson River yesterday. In. My. Car. This wait is slowly breaking my heart.

I made a bad assumption this week that another family who recently got a court date didn't have to redo any paperwork before hearing any feedback on court. Miraculous! They got to go right to a court date! WRONG! Turns out the process took over a month, with some paperwork expiring - and urgently mailing a file to Vladivostok. So my thought that maybe I'd hear something on Monday looks more and more like a pipe dream. And if my timeline is anything like theirs, I'll be lucky to get a court date in MARCH. March? March? Seriously?

People are very helpful and try to say things like "get lots of sleep now, because you won't when she comes home. Or "catch up on your movies"... etc. See this is the problem. I have been doing that for 2 1/2 months. Going on 3. I am ready. Really ready.

My mom said to me today, well you're just going to have to wait. And I realize it's true. But I am scared to death something will happen in that wait time. I scour the Internet trying to read anything and everything posted on's Russian board and however, sometimes that just feeds my fire as I hear a different region is now cancelling trips over the ruling in the Chase Harrison legal case in VA. I try to explain to people that haven't been through this process how hard it is. The only relation I can come up with is (for those with kids) giving birth and then having the doctor tell you "Your child has to go away to the other side of the world for 4 months or so - you can come back and get him/her later". The wait is gut wrenching.

Her room is done, clothes are in the dresser. Toys are in toy boxes and waiting. Her picture is on my wall, and on my dresser. I can't wait to see her face again live. When????

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Post Holiday Movement in Russia... AND VLAD

First, don't get too excited, it's not my news -- yet! But you can get excited for two of my blogger friends: Joy, who I just spoke of yesterday having struggles with her agency and waiting for a referral, got a referral of a little girl! And The Collinson's, who were in Vlad a week before me got their court date! So lots of wonderful movement after the holidays. I am so happy for you both, and while I can't WAIT to hear some wonderful news on my end, believe it or not, I am almost as excited for these families!

I did speak with my agency yesterday and was told that the team in Vladivostok has an appointment with the judge on Monday 1/19 to discuss my file. I am praying that the judge is in a wonderful mood and passes me right to go! Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Pennies and Lemonade

First, I want to pass along part of an email I got from my dad. A quick note on pops - he is where my humor comes from. And he's lethal with the forwarded emails! If you get on his list - you'll never be without a joke (or 5) in your in-box. I was expecting a joke last night - but got this instead:

That Little Penny In The Parking Lot: Remember this every time you pass that little penny in the parking lot. I always thought that it was for good luck, but I like this version better.
I found a penny today
Laying on the ground.
But it's not just a penny,
This little coin I've found.
Found pennies come from heaven,
that's what my Grandpa told me.
He said Angels toss them down.
Oh, how I loved that story.
He said when an Angel misses you,
They toss a penny down;
Sometimes just to cheer you up,
To make a smile out of your frown.
So, don't pass by that penny
When you're feeling blue.
It may be a penny from heaven
That an Angel's tossed to you

Now you can call me silly - but I really liked this story. I like to think that our loved ones that have passed watch over us. So, Gram? If you're not busy, I'll take a couple more pennies and a court date, please!!!
That's right, still waiting for a word. Any word. This morning while checking my favorite blogs, I got a message from Barb that she was passing along an award and had nominated me. Thanks Barb!! So before the rest of you get tagged... I am going to pass this along per the rules. And speaking of the rules, here they are:
This award is meant for people who are positive, show gratitude, and of course: make lemons out of lemonade! The rules for this award are that you post the graphic for it, write a post that links back to the giver, and then pass it on to up to ten others. Leave a comment on the blogs that get the award, so they know what's happened.
My nominees are:
1) SARA!!!! My sister in Vladivostok. Not only was Sara on her trip #1 when I was there as well, but we've shared a really scarily similar time line. Sara just "gets" me and vice versa. I hope we'll be life long friends!
2) Heather: My newest Vlad friend! I blog stalked Heather while she and her husband were in Vlad this past December. She is so positive about this wait that she re-energizes me when I need it!
3) Staci: Also waiting for her court trip to Vlad. Can't wait to have dinner with her in Vlad!
4) Joanne: I don't know where to start. Joanne has a calm and spirit that amazes me, especially with everything she's been through lately.
5) Finally, to the crew before me that has helped BEYOND their knowledge. Thanks for keeping me sane: Tamara, the duo of Jesse & Jason, Rachel, and of course Heidi!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sweet 16

My eldest baby, the king of the household, will be 16 this February. I can literally still remember the day back in 1993, that my mom said "there is an ad in the paper for a family who has Himalayan kittens for sale - you want an Easter kitten?".

When I graduated from college in May 1992, I accepted a job with a rickety company out of New Jersey that hired young college grads to travel around to college campuses and hawk calling cards and credit cards. It was fun for a bit, I got to see part of the country that I'd probably never have seen otherwise (hint: Stillwater, OK is a really cool town!). But the travel grew old, quickly: leaving every week on Sunday and returning home late on a Friday night - AND sharing a hotel room with someone you barely knew. In January 1993, I started a new job with a real company - and ceased the senseless travel. To celebrate, the night I got my offer, I adopted a calico kitty (Snickers) from a local kitty foster home. Murphy, the king, came along around Easter as her partner in crime. Unfortunately, Snickers left us at the young age of 4 and Murphy became the king.

He's a flame point Himalayan with the best blue eyes. If you see him, he just LOOKS regal. Since we lost Snickers together, we've added and sometimes lost a crew. Murphy has seen both Nougat and Gertie come and sadly go. He's now joined by the babies: Roo and Gracie. While there has been jockeying for position in my household (aka jealousy among cats), it seems that they ALWAYS know who is the boss.
I am contemplating calling MTV to see if I can add Murphy to their ranks of the kids who get to celebrate the "Sweet 16" on TV. Should I get him a car and have a giant party that costs nearly $1000 a head? Seriously, his being on the show makes about as much sense as the show does itself :)
Happy Pre-Birthday Murph! You've been with me through thick and thin and are a perfect cat. I hope we have many more years to come!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Distractions in Chicago

Greetings from the Windy City!

This week, thankfully, bright and early on Monday morning, it was off to Chicago for a work meeting. Actually, this meeting was originally planned for next week, but silly me thought that I could likely be headed to Vladivostok, Russia then. Silly me!! I have a great time that I work with - so they made the meeting this week.

We did a little planning for 2009 and setting up some new systems, but mostly it was a celebration of a solid 2008. We had drinks at the top of the Hancock Building, ate at Pizzeria Uno and finally a big dinner with most of the region at Joe's Prime House and Stone Crab.

The best part for me was that this trip forced me out of my routine of WAITING. So for a couple of days, I was able to get my mind off things and have fun! My January schedule has been up in the air - since I thought I'd be traveling. I've decided that I'm going to go ahead and plan some work appointments this month anyway. That way if no news comes, I'll still be productive - but maybe this will be my Murphy's Law assistance... if I plan something else, I'll have to go to Russia! Plus all my customers know what's going on, so if I have to reschedule -- they'll understand!

Is it January 12th yet?

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Do You Crock-Pot?

A few months ago, one of my blogger friends (I think it was Karyn, it was Karyn or Becky for sure!!) was asking about easier ways to cook. I have been thinking about trying to eat healthier/better this year- and even more about things to cook when Little T finally arrives (sometime, anytime, hopefully soon!!!). This is NOT a full blown resolution -- I rarely succeed at those. But for those of you that were/are single for a period of time OR regularly eat alone due to schedules, etc. you probably know how difficult it is to cook for just one.

My tip to Karyn (I'm almost sure that it was Kar, but I am too lazy today to go searching through the archives... horrible I know) was my good friend, the crock-pot. I realized that I should probably take my own advice and maybe use the crock-pot more. It's great for clean-up, (especially when you use crock-pot liners!!) and it also helps me with my age old problem -- not planning ahead for dinner and then suddenly having to come up with something at the last minute, which typically turns out not so healthy.

While checking facebook this morning for my suddenly quiet friend Sarah, I came across this message for a blog of a lady who apparently cooked in her crock-pot EVERYDAY in 2008. So while, I am a little late to her party, I'll gladly snoop around and post this for everyone. I read a little here and there, she tries to cook gluten free as much as possible -- but it really looks like she uses "normal" ingredients for the most part. She apparently also made it on the Rachel Ray Show, who I love, but can't stand her voice and mannerisms, so I never watch. (I know, doesn't make sense) Enjoy!

Keeping with Karyn's question (and I'll feel really dumb if it was Becky and NOT Karyn!) - what do you do to cook everyday? Martha Stewart answer are NOT accepted :)

Friday, January 2, 2009

My 2009 Wishes

The first post of 2009. I have declared it "The Year of Tatiana" (and Max!! and all the other little ones that come home this year).

To get us started this year, I thought I'd do a great recap of 2008 like Chandra did (how did I do Karyn?? Thanks for the tips!!! Hehe!!) But then I realized, my 2008 wasn't really all that exciting. It had its ups and downs like everyone else, but not really note-worthy enough to warrant a whole year in review. So I decided to look forward to my wishes for 2009. Here we go!

1) My first wish is a present from Vladivostok for my friend Angie and her family. Angie is a wonderful person, who has shared many a laugh and stress point with me. It WILL happen Ang!! I have faith -- just when you least expect it!!

2) My second wish is to meet Tamara, Nathan, Sasha and little Mia in FL, along with some other Lighthouse folks, including possibly Lorien (if I haven't seen her face by then!). Keep your fingers crossed for us!

3) Third, I wish for safe and speedy travels for all the neat people I have "met" on this journey. Nancy, the Overstreets, the Collinsons, Joy, Roger & Joanne, and those still waiting for word from Russia.

4) I hope Jesse and Jason write a book full of tips for travelers. It would be a best seller instantly!!

5) For my oldest friends: I hope Carrie, Barry and Mary sell their house; I hope Kimster Hamster follows her dream; and that Suzy and crew continue to be the healthy, happy family that I lean on! I hope Madam Rhonda finds the picture that takes all of our breath away - and realizes the talent that she always denies.

6) For my family: I wish for peace for Jenni's hectic life; for Gary and Rena to know that they are loved; and for mom, dad & Sharon and Gram all meet their new grand-daughter/great-grand-daughter. I hope to see Aunt Kay and the Clarkson's more.

And finally... I wish for a court date soon to bring home the little miracle that I can't wait to change my life. I can't wait to share everything with her and start her on a new path!

Happy 2009 everyone. What are your hopes and wishes for the year?