It is not often that I am without words, so I'll simply say thank you. Thank you to everyone who left a note or an email over the weekend of darkness. That's what I am calling it now, as I am trying to put it behind me and move forward. Adding to the madness this weekend, I have been under a full fledged sinus attack. I think it was my karmic-comeuppance for singing the praises too loudly of my flu shot in October. I finally listened to my mother (why I waited, I don't know, they always DO know best!) last night and used the ole boiling pot of water on the stove/towel over your head trick.
Through this I have seen that I have some amazing friends. Some old faces and some I have never met. I am truly touched by every ones kindness - from the Overstreet's including me in their weekly prayer group last night to my long time friend Kim in Columbus, OH who is dealing with her own "wait" as well in many different forms.
Kim sent me a note this weekend that really summed it all up for me. I told her that my first pass at the note had to be tabled due to rapid appearance of tears (maybe it was just the sinuses!), but I printed her note and read it again before bed last night. Kim is one of my oldest friends and by that I don't mean her chronological age! I met Kim on likely the first or second day of 9th grade - in gym class. She and her family had just moved to Mt. Pleasant, MI (my hometown) that year. I was the new kid once, so I always liked to introduce myself to the "new kids". Kim and I instantly hit it off and have been friends ever since. She knows me better than almost anyone! Kim sent a quote from a book she's reading and I wanted to share it:
"Waiting is our destiny as creatures who cannot by themselves bring about what they hope for. We wait in the darkness for a flame we cannot light, We wait in fear for a happy ending we cannot write, We wait for a not yet that feels like a not ever. Waiting is the hardest work of hope." - Lewis Smedes
While writing this post, I got the slightest of updates from my agency. Apparently the form they were promised from Tatiana's baby home was NOT ready for them last week and they are to have it this Wednesday. I am now being told that my papers should go to the judge this Thursday or Friday. Not the update I was hoping for - but at least it's an update.
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