Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Metcha Day

One year ago today I met my daughter. The day ended drastically different than it started. In the morning, I was scared, frustrated, excited - everything. I was told when I landed in Russia that my referral was "not good". I had flown a long way and was wondering how I'd ever be able to do the crazy trip #1 again if I had to decline a referral and there was no other child to see.

It's amazing how fate works. My friend Joy said the other day that Tatiana and I were like a pair of mittens - we just fit together. My mother told Tatiana a few months ago that she was the best idea I ever had.

I can't agree more...

I have a hard time remembering life before Tatiana. I used to be a TV junkie. I love pop culture - and TV fits into that so well. These days, I am lucky to get caught up on Glee and Grey's Anatomy. I have 5 full episodes (the max my DVR keeps of a show) of Project Runway, Saturday Night Live and Monk waiting for me - that I may never get to. I haven't watched my Netflix movie that's been waiting here for me for a month when I used to schedule it so I could get two movies in a week. Watch Saturday or Sunday - in the mail Monday, new movie received and watched Wednesday - in the mail Thursday - new movie for the weekend. Repeat.

I still find the occasional moment to blog and check in with facebook but it's typically at night after the little one is asleep. I used to stay awake almost nightly until midnight, now I am lucky to see 10:30 - 11pm. I used to never miss a party/shower/happening if I could avoid it -- and now, I RSVP'd no to my cousin's baby shower because it's adults only and I can't imagine choosing to spend another 6 hours away from her on a weekend, when I am already away from her enough!

Looking back 1 year ago, after declining my first referral and waiting to see if I could meet the 2nd one that day, I spied a little girl with a red hat on and brown curls tumbling out the back. I said "I wish I could have a little girl JUST like her - she's perfect".

I was right!

Ok maybe perfect is too ideal of a word, but she's perfect for me and yes, mom. She IS the best idea I ever had! My life changed a year ago today, and I wouldn't change it back for all the money in the world.

October 21, 2008

13 comments:

Clarese said...

Aw! So sweet! Things really do work out as they should :)

skaduce said...

Congratulations!

Chandra said...

I forgot we met our girls on the same day on opposite ends of Russia! What a year it's been for us huh?

Happy Anniversary!

Lindsay said...

Your life sounds perfect :)

amy and kevin said...

I love your story! Miss T was meant to be :)

Jeanette said...

Can't believe it's been a year!!! I remember checking in each morning to see if you updated your blog. So happy for you both :)

Nichole said...

I love what your mom said, that is awesome! Isn't it fun to think back a year ago?

Shelly and Steve said...

How wonderfully you put it into words. A year? wow, I remember reading about that day back then....so happy for you both!!

Iraida said...

Sweet :)

findingourdaughter said...

You've left me crying with this post! I was so fraught with worry for you when you left on trip 1.....having no idea what a BIG plan God had in such a little package named Tatiana.
Happy Birthday little miss T!
Miss you and love you lots....Ansheen

Roger and Joanne said...

You summed up beautifully how now you don't have time for all the things you thought were so fun and important. The DVR and movie's will always be there. Glad you and T are enjoying each other so immensely!

Troy and Rachel said...

I have loved reading your memories of last year and one day T will too. I am totally on the same page with you about saying no to some things, especially when I can't include Daniel - they are our lives now. Things may not have turned out as you initially planned (little boy) but for you I know they turned out even better!!

Hope said...

I BET YOU WOULDN'T!